Ham or Egg??
Wednesday, December 13th, 2006If you watch the 2nd season of Grey’s , you’ll know what on earth does the title of this post means.. LOL… It’s a long analogy *sigh*, but basically it’s about getting involved (egg) or getting committed (ham) to something… And me, I’m a getting involved person… commitment for me, is a monster, chasing me everywhere I go. and now that I’m getting older *LOL* , I encounter that creepy monster more often than ever, and it’s getting harder to dodge that monster… Nope, I’m not talking about marriage.. LOL, you gotta have a husband-to-be before you can think about marriage… even getting a husband-to-be requires a commitment (yes my friend, getting a so-called-boy/girlfriend means committing a portion of ur life, ur freedom, ur time, and ur money to someone else)….
And no, I’m not in love.. LOL.. The story I’m trying to tell here is about this blog.. Yup, this blog… It’s been like forever since the last time I post something in this blog… Yes, I’m too lazy to write anything lately.. Even now, I wrote this only because I’m bored to death with my last 2 weeks in Manado.. yuck… There’s nothing to do here!! OK, we have a brand new so-called Shopping Mall… But all they have there are only 4 or 5 lousy stores open, and 2 Christmas trees, one of them is made of Peanuts…roasted… Yes my dear, don’t blame ur eyes, they’re made of roasted Peanuts (whole peanuts, with the shells still attached), and apparently it’s the tallest Roasted Peanuts Christmas tree in Indonesia ever.. Yeah rite, like there are other stupid people in Indonesia who tried to make Christmas tree from roasted peanuts before. First, most of Indonesians are Moslem, so about 98% of Indonesians don’t care about Christmas Tree. Second, Indonesians, we live in poverty, you give people tons of roasted peanuts, they will either sell them or eat them… LOLz … Well, I actually pity all the people that were enslaved by those of Boulevard Mall (that’s what the new mall is named) to assemble some 30m Christmas tree from roasted peanuts…
But at least they have something to do *sigh* I’m bored to death here… I got nothing to do… My life here rotates around sleep, take a bath, eat, go to rest room, watch some lousy sinetron on TV *LOL*, be a cashier in my parent’s pharmacy, read some old comic book, and texting my mates here…..
Boringgggg!!! I don’t even have any chance to hang out with my friends here, cuz all of them are working now!! Even worst, most of them are young doctors!! They’ve just graduated this year.
Young doctors, they don’t have a life. LOL. Seriously, they work as some kind of intern in the biggest hospital in Manado. They work more than 12 hrs a day, sometimes overnight, they get scolded by the ‘real’, senior, and supposedly expert doctors in the hospital (or hopsital according to George W. Bush), and they don’t even get paid… In fact they pay the hospital for having them as some cheerful slaves… LOLzz.. *Love you guys heaps, and I’m proud of u guys, just try not to kill anyone in the hospital*
But that’s the thing, those young doctors friends of mine, they have commitment. They’re willing to work in an overcrowded hospital, work for more than 12 hrs a day, unpaid, because they’re committed to be a doctor… they’re the ham on top of the table……. and me, I don’t have a commitment even for a friendster blog
*geez linkie, that’s a totally different thing writing a blog for fun and trying to be a great doctor to save people’s life* I’m the egg on top of the dinner table.
Well, the point is, I don’t even have a commitment for small things (this blog, promises made to my baby nieces and nephews *LOL*, cleaning up my room *hehe*), let alone getting my self committed to bigger things (relationships *friendship that is :P*, uni, assignment, thesis, work, world peace, extreme climate change prevention, stem cell research,…. LOL). Ok, about this blog thing, It’s not actually a big deal… My problem is, I was never able to get myself fully committed to something… At uni, I skip classes, I abandon my assignments *sometimes*, and I hate my thesis. At work I call in sick at least once a week….. and at home… to be honest, I didn’t clean up my room as often as I should be… LOL get the point…. oh, and at church… I’m always late 15-30 minutes every time it’s my turn to serve in the LCD ministry. Talking about commitment…
The point is I’m a ‘getting involved’ person, not ‘getting committed person’. I love to be involved in things, but I run as far as I can once I sniff any possible lurking commitment. and I don’t wanna be like this forever, I need to grow up *even though I don’t want to* and I don’t wanna be some lousy commitment-retarded person…. Gotta learn to be more committed to things… and that shall start with finishing that Roasted Peanuts Christmas Tree in the corner of my room.. LOL… JK.. I don’t even like peanuts….
